Waking up to songs in my head
I’ve met a few people recently that’s refueled my interest and passion for music again and it’s been a very surreal time for me. I had forgotten how much I LOVE music and this inner need to express my emotions through song, through singing.
I haven’t been able to sleep much these days but I am not tired either. Just about 5 hours a night and I’ve stayed up for 30+ hrs straight too. Something is just happening with me inside that is awakening… When I am awake, I find songs running through my head as if they have some message for me. When I listen to them and read the lyrics, it is very poignant to the place I am currently and the thoughts and emotions I am feeling.
Today I woke up to Alter Bridge’s Broken Wings. I love the guitar in that song, sometimes I think about learning how to play. I have this guitar I bought years ago that just sits in the case, I take it out once in awhile and just strum it a bit and it sounds so sweet, it makes me kind of giddy. I just love the beautiful sounds a guitar makes, I’d be content to sit and listen to someone play acoustic for me.
And singing, I really love to sing but I am shy to sing in front of others. Get nervous and I’ve been told that nervousness and singing don’t mix. Lately I’ve been a bit more brave and I like my voice…sort of getting into that “i don’t care if people hear me” phase. ….more brave I guess, trying to let go of my inhibitions. It’s just another way to express myself and I am all about self expression. I am a sucker for good vocals. This guy I am dating has the most incredible speaking voice and he is a singer too. I haven’t heard much of his singing as it is still a new relationship but I am totally drooling over his voice. I think if it gets to the point where he is just singing for me, I would probably be so moved that I’d cry.
I seem to have a lot of emotions just bubbling under the surface these days, I think that’s why all these songs are coming through… just like Alter Bridge’s Broken Wings… this is how I am feeling today, maybe I feel this way a lot…look at the chorus for the song..
On broken wings I’m falling
And it won’t be long
The skin on me is burning
By the fires of the sun
On skinned knees
I’m bleeding
And it won’t be long
I’ve got to find that meaning
I’ll search for so long
I am going to go for a bike ride… maybe try to clear my head a bit more. My niece is here this week for a few days….she is 8yrs and she has a way of showing up whenever I need some love. She is so special to me, I think out of everyone I know in this world, I love her the most :luv:
